Bonus, there is an apple tree on the property with different variety of apples grafted on to the same tree. I will plant some berries, maybe take along some mock orange, and of course, the iris.
I was out in the shop the other day. I started crying. It's ok to grieve. I don't know when I will be back to sewing machine tinkering. I know I will again. Maybe as early as July. Certainly not for the next two weeks. Sigh.
Today completed the 6th of 6 cycles of chemotherapy. The next few days will be hell and then I slowly come back to life. In a month I go back for re-staging. That's the scary part.
One thing I do know, when I die my obituary will not read "She fought a courageous battle against lymphoma." Not me. I am a fucking coward.
I'm glad to see a post from you. I think of you often when I look at my blog reading list. Best wishes for adjustment to the new house and the life of being a patient for a while- none of us pick that but especially rotten for us health care workers, I think.
ReplyDeleteYes. In my case I just don't know how to take care of myself. I just keep going. Once I am through this round, I promise I will sew or tinker.
DeleteOh, Elizabeth, praying you get through these next days. There is a lot coming at you with health and moving. The new house looks lovely, both in location and structure. One day at a time. Wrap yourself up in a quilt and have a cup of tea.
ReplyDeleteThank you. I pretty much know the drill by now. Hopefully this will do it. Right now I am snuggled with my Wrigley and the very first quilt I ever made. It is a quilt as you go log cabin. Picture later.
DeleteThe new house looks awesome--the property is beautiful and your neighbors will no doubt be quiet ones. :-) Keep fighting the fight no matter how scared you feel. I can't even begin to imagine what you're going through. Hoping you get back to your routine quickly!
ReplyDeleteThe young feminists say "Self Care Is Survival". After all these years, I've come to the conclusion that we don't fight cancer so much as we outlast cancer. Sending the good stuff your way as always.
ReplyDeletepraying sweetie
ReplyDeleteOur first house was less than 11oo square feet, but, it was arranged very well, and had lots of closet space. No basement. For 2 people, it looks like you have a great place. We had 4 in our space, and it worked well, but, I didn't sew back then. Good luck with the last chemo treatments, and, hopefully, you'll test clear. Just take it one day at a time.
ReplyDeleteOh, sweetie, what a time you have having. Hugs from the UK. Your new house is so pretty. Take care. Sharon x
ReplyDeleteMy daughter and her dh renovated a house maybe even smaller that has the most wonderful basement. I look at it with great envy wishing I had a sewing space like this. I'll bet you will love not running all over the place like I do now working on stuff. Keep fighting as we all want /need you to get well and send you healing vibes. The new place is great and you'll probably love it when you get to feeling better again.
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful new house in which to come back to life. Plus a garage and a basement! Wishing you a quick road back to health and tinkering.
ReplyDeleteI found your blog looking for help in repairing my Kenmore 158.18033. I saw the posts about the machine and posted my own question.....then I came to the current posts. I'm so sorry to read about your difficult time and did not mean to add to your stress when I posted my question. Please take care.
ReplyDeleteNo worries.
DeleteYour new home looks wonderful. My first impression was I bet there will be flowers and reading your post I see that you have some plans. I have found smaller places are great, cleaning less time. No place to pile too much stuff so clutter stays kinda in control and little things like that. I hope this finds you feeling better, you are often in my happy thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI found your blog while looking for resources to service my Singer 66-1 RedHead. As I continued reading your posts, they've take me from 2011/2012? to the present. My heart broke when I read of you diagnosis!! I'll pray for healing and positive results on the next round of test! I have enjoyed every post! We are kindred spirits regarding our political views and speaking our mind (even when it's not G-rated). I'm looking forward to your next post.
ReplyDelete-Bryce
Thanks for your thoughts. Having cancer sucks but I have medical insurance, and money for co-pays and no one is shooting at me.
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